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So I haven’t posted much in a while, and most of that is because I found out my now ex-girlfriend is a cheating whore. I don’t think I will delete any of the stuff I wrote for her because It was actually some pretty good stuff. She didn’t deserve a word of it, but I hope you guys enjoyed reading it. On that note, I am officially single. Lets make a better decision this time, shall we?

I worry about her when she does these things. I haven’t heard from her in two days. I mean, am I wrong for worrying? Am I wrong for being a little upset? I always feel guilty for for feeling this way and I don’t know why. 

Thinking about Friday makes my palms sweat. I believe everything will be fine, I’m just bracing myself for the worst if it happens. Luckily, I’m busy again today. I need to be distracted. 

So I have my interview today. Thankfully, it’s keeping my mind occupied. I still think of her constantly and I break down here and there, but I’m finally to the part of the week where I’m going to be busy for the majority of the time. Friday will be here in no time.

I’m now back to feeling uneasy about everything. I’ve been going through in my head everything that I’m going to say at the end of this break. I’m trying to stay positive though. I’m just hoping and praying every minute that things can work out.

Of your voice saying you love me.

I get anxiety.

After yesterday, I feel better. It’s starting to hurt a little bit less. I feel like everything is going to turn out for the best. I still get creeping feelings here and there that everything will fall apart, but I’m trying really hard to shove them aside. I just keep repeating to myself “She quoted the song…she quoted the song…”.

This is a good sign, right? It means everything will be alright. Right?